Welcome to my blog, a working dedication to my ever-growing curiosities, insights, and biases about the world. I would like to leave the theme of this blog somewhat aimless and open ended, though as tribute to its intent, I can say this...
My love, pain, and curiosity for life grows and shape-shifts from day to day. As I move into each new experience, each stage of life, I find those external circumstances continually shifting the internal (or is it the other way around?) That experience can be both extremely inspiring and unnerving.
I’ve been seduced by music, cultures, foreign lands, mystics, intellectuals, intoxication, seekers, healers, liars, and love. I’ve found tears I never knew I had for strangers, nature, and the spirit world. Laughed at four-leaf clovers and my own fucked up thoughts. Spent years on end wallowing in shallow insecurities, and with weeks notice jumped on a plane to a foreign country; fought to the death to hold fast to stubborn belief systems and given it all up in a moment of faith. I’ve felt stuck, clear, inspired, bored, nervous, lost, small, unimportant, entitled, free, and everything in between. But I feel pretty normally messed up, eh ;)
Somewhere in the flux of it all I find expression to be a primal evolving factor - be it through acts of healing, movement, conversation, or art. A voice is found there and despite the confusion of change lays a proof of something more permanent - a spirit. When we release our experiences through expression, rather than holding tight to them, I find that things instead flow through us - pain is freed, lessons are learned, balance is renewed. We prevent the deadening of stagnation. Expression, as a release of all we think, do, and feel becomes almost crucial to maintaining our flow of life.
When the written word is allowed the freedom to fall on the paper as it may - all restrictions, boundaries, rules removed - something beautiful happens. Through language we begin to reconnect. We begin to straddle the worlds of heart and mind, and reenter that space between. A place familiar to us all. A wise woman explained these creative acts as "standing between the worlds of rationality and mythos." She says that land is that inexplicable place we all recognize once we experience it, but its nuances slip away and shape-change if one tries to pin them down....except when we use poetry, music, dance, or story.
Here are my stories…my revelations, insights, memories, questions, or just random crap without any substance whatsoever. As my experiences were gifted to me, I offer them back to you. Through an opening of heart and mind in whichever form they find themselves on the screen. I hope to find the words that we can meet at that familiar place where truth and matters of the heart reside - never to be pretentious, preachy, or superior. Though I do wish to move you, to speak to a part of you yearning for that one conversation to stir it back into existence. Come with me if you like and explore this long forsaken land so that we may reconnect. The land between my experience and me, me and you, us and whatever there is left to discover. I hope you might find a place for yourself here too, in my world of words.
